Where are we

• Where are we

Happiness is a big part to life. Though this life shouldn't be all fun and games, that seems fake. Or does it? My life is about bringing joy to my soul. Living with depression is about finding strength within. That strength is designed on a trickery. Our minds can be altered if we truly fight to do so. I like to laugh, smile, and live in the moment as much as I can when I can. No matter what is going on, I want to laugh. What is the point of life it is all about seriousness twenty four seven? My whole life I've been searching for a sense of stillness. Once when I expressed this ideal it was thrown down in a very passive way. That it is not stillness but about finding a person who can bring passion out of you. That you want someone to bring you to life.

There are times I am here, in that stillness. That Zen of purpose. Where I am living deep within the present moment of my time. Worrying about nothing from my past or anything frivolous future. Cause that is what a future is, unknown thus having little value to it. When we finally reach that future it is in the moment of now. Where it is filled with value. Peace is my goal in life. That comes from building my world around me to open doors for those in my life. Power brings a sense of stillness and worry free peace. Growing everyday in a my path to becoming a successful Producer, Entertainer, living artist making magic happen around me, these things these ventures are all a part of a much larger purpose.

In less than two years living in Brooklyn I have found a definitive purpose I had not been aware of in my past. Still I teach people, still I create artistic express daily, still I move forward each day, but all this was filling my day without purpose or reason. Now living here my reason has become exponentially clearer to my mind and soul. Do I mislead my soul into darkness and lay depressed in absolution? Yes, of course I still do. But I keep moving forward because I have found purpose. There is still a darkness to where we are but I want to believe my light breaks those walls of emptiness each time I choice to live in the moment instead of for a moment.

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Depression's Depth

• Depression's Depth

Into a bottomless pit of empty wonders and lost ideas. Dark roads flicking with desperate light attempting to break through your eyes. Hopeless pressure pushing down upon your body, left untouched by options. The warmth of blankets covering your soul, keeping you in a prison of failed efforts to get up and out. 'Snap out of it' echoes in your deaf ears punished by truths filling your soul in negative ways. A glimmer of cheer is there waiting washed in rage, roaring for victory in a cell built to withstand a battling battalion. Your will left bruised in a sea of crumbling rock as you float underneath years of destruction.

Battling depression is an uphill crawl with weight holding you down. Often I am forced to remember I work hard to keep sharp knives at bay inside me. Breaking my door down to feel freedom is a struggle at times, but I know I'm not the only one. About one hundred percent of the time I am walking in a state of depression. What I've taught myself is how to keep it slightly at bay. Therefor there are times I am less depressed. The world around me pushes me to these darker states. And when I am there it is difficult to relate to others. I want to be left in my room, alone and with the one person who gets it, me. That could be dangerous.

Depression is a cancer fighting to kill you. You are stronger than death with a strong will and people around you being supportive. Depression is real, it is not a made up thing people say is going on as an excuse. Like all ailments it must be treated with respect. It must be presented with a sense of urgency. Treat those living with depression as you would a person with cancer, or any other ailment. They need your support and not your pity. Give them your time when it is needed. Be able, not overbearing. Extend your hand when they call for it. Pushing the matter can make it worst at times. These are my opinions on how I am with my own depression.

You are stronger than the fall...

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Poetry in motion

• Poetry in motion

Being an entertainer is a struggle. It becomes a battle after every failed audition, bomb on stage, lack of ticket sales, and of course any expression of art turning to a flop. Even when you don't feel your creative juices flowing, that can push you to hide. There comes a point when it feels easier to run away and get a “real” job, than continuing on. Every performer has ups and downs. It comes with this job. You must have your “A” game every night, every day, every moment... oh, and you are told you should also come prepared with new material each time. Some of us are even self destructive. So, Why want this life? Is there a point if in the end we can't handle all our failures? And if there is such failure, why try at all?

Recently Robin Williams had passed away by a self inflecting end. He and I suffer from depression, bipolar disorder, and the need to make others happy despite our own impending frail sadness. I suppose recently I've been considering my end game. Not to end my life, or to give up. But, the idea that, if Robin Williams couldn't take the world anymore-- Or rather, his life within this world, what chance do I have? He was a standard in life. A person who brought purposeful glow to those sad, afraid, or people committed to a finality of any given situation. I am not here to speak about Robin's death, or why he killed himself. I am here explaining that even the unknown, and known, have their battles.

I suppose I am saying; if you can, and are willing, keep on failing upward. We will have trails and tribulations. When we lose fellow soldiers of entertainment it is our job to remember what they gave to make it possible for us to fail within a business they helped nurture. When we are on stage, respect all those who had/have been on stage and those who wished they had strength to be up on stage. A fearlessness to break free of excuses and become apart of that magic. If you can't see yourself being successful, stop, breathe and rethink your plan. If you are not Networking, Marketing and Practicing; then you are standing still in your amazing, awesome and unique talent. Poetry alone is nothing if not in motion...

“No matter what people tell you, words and ideas can change the world.” ~ Robin Williams

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