Sunday, May 29, 2016

Where are we

• Where are we

Happiness is a big part to life. Though this life shouldn't be all fun and games, that seems fake. Or does it? My life is about bringing joy to my soul. Living with depression is about finding strength within. That strength is designed on a trickery. Our minds can be altered if we truly fight to do so. I like to laugh, smile, and live in the moment as much as I can when I can. No matter what is going on, I want to laugh. What is the point of life it is all about seriousness twenty four seven? My whole life I've been searching for a sense of stillness. Once when I expressed this ideal it was thrown down in a very passive way. That it is not stillness but about finding a person who can bring passion out of you. That you want someone to bring you to life.

There are times I am here, in that stillness. That Zen of purpose. Where I am living deep within the present moment of my time. Worrying about nothing from my past or anything frivolous future. Cause that is what a future is, unknown thus having little value to it. When we finally reach that future it is in the moment of now. Where it is filled with value. Peace is my goal in life. That comes from building my world around me to open doors for those in my life. Power brings a sense of stillness and worry free peace. Growing everyday in a my path to becoming a successful Producer, Entertainer, living artist making magic happen around me, these things these ventures are all a part of a much larger purpose.

In less than two years living in Brooklyn I have found a definitive purpose I had not been aware of in my past. Still I teach people, still I create artistic express daily, still I move forward each day, but all this was filling my day without purpose or reason. Now living here my reason has become exponentially clearer to my mind and soul. Do I mislead my soul into darkness and lay depressed in absolution? Yes, of course I still do. But I keep moving forward because I have found purpose. There is still a darkness to where we are but I want to believe my light breaks those walls of emptiness each time I choice to live in the moment instead of for a moment.

Be more than what you think it should be!?
Do you have what it takes to... … Do you!?

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Wednesday, May 11, 2016


• Preparation

Getting started begins with preparation. For any venture one might embark on it is clear to have a steady sense of emotional, physical, and mental preparation. This kind of awareness can help develop a strong game plan when working on S.M.A.R.T. Goals. Since every task will involve you as a person. Setting these S.M.A.R.T. Goals to your abilities help grant an inward willingness to take action. Time Management can overwhelm any strong Preparation if handled outside a controlled schedule. Writing a web series like 'The Circle' is more than having an idea. The process is getting people together to work together so they can grow together.

For me it was about gathering up a group of people I believed in and trusted. To me 'Team Rise Together' embodies such a mentality. An automatic trusting bond between them and I. This project is a gathering of talented people all working diligently toward a specific task. A task designated to their particular skill set. Everyone from our producers, to the writers, cast and crew, down to the smallest aspect of a project. Before you even get to this point, for me, it was about setting up a 'Business Plan' and knowing where to begin so I knew where it was going. Every venture is safer when you know the course you are taking.

It has lead this team to a beautiful place. First, 'oh DEER! Productions' is at 8,834 on the MOVIEmeter for IMDb. The show itself is at 56,478 and fluctuates between 27,000 and 80,000-ish. Which is a huge accomplishment for an unknown show and production company. Now, 'oh DEER! Productions' is our creative company whereas 'BBR Productions Inc' is more of the go get the money people, marketing team, and advisors. It all works. We prepared as needed and jumped right onto the moving train. Now we are in the Funds fun factor ← AH alliteration always awesome! Raising our production budget begins with $1.00!

Where does your venture begin!? Do you have what it takes to... … Do you!?

Make A Right Left Here (My official page website)
BBR Productions Inc. (Direct company link)

Tuesday, May 3, 2016

Depression's Depth

• Depression's Depth

Into a bottomless pit of empty wonders and lost ideas. Dark roads flicking with desperate light attempting to break through your eyes. Hopeless pressure pushing down upon your body, left untouched by options. The warmth of blankets covering your soul, keeping you in a prison of failed efforts to get up and out. 'Snap out of it' echoes in your deaf ears punished by truths filling your soul in negative ways. A glimmer of cheer is there waiting washed in rage, roaring for victory in a cell built to withstand a battling battalion. Your will left bruised in a sea of crumbling rock as you float underneath years of destruction.

Battling depression is an uphill crawl with weight holding you down. Often I am forced to remember I work hard to keep sharp knives at bay inside me. Breaking my door down to feel freedom is a struggle at times, but I know I'm not the only one. About one hundred percent of the time I am walking in a state of depression. What I've taught myself is how to keep it slightly at bay. Therefor there are times I am less depressed. The world around me pushes me to these darker states. And when I am there it is difficult to relate to others. I want to be left in my room, alone and with the one person who gets it, me. That could be dangerous.

Depression is a cancer fighting to kill you. You are stronger than death with a strong will and people around you being supportive. Depression is real, it is not a made up thing people say is going on as an excuse. Like all ailments it must be treated with respect. It must be presented with a sense of urgency. Treat those living with depression as you would a person with cancer, or any other ailment. They need your support and not your pity. Give them your time when it is needed. Be able, not overbearing. Extend your hand when they call for it. Pushing the matter can make it worst at times. These are my opinions on how I am with my own depression.

You are stronger than the fall...

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